Happy mother's day!
Our princess arrived one and half years back and I am still on cloud 9..we have been waiting for so long for this little bundle if joy. I used to think how will I feel when I first see her. Her loud cry woke me up from my sleep on that operation table and I was relieved that it's over and I 'll b able to see my baby soon. I remember nurse showing me her face, but all I could see was a bunch of black hair...we got her once I was back in the room and the journey of Parenthood started from there..
This post has been due since a year, better late than never..My second mother's day and the best day to pen down my thoughts on being a mother. I had all the emotions I was expecting..excitement, fear, happiness, worry. And one more feeling which I never thought I will have.. Guilt!!!
I felt guilty of all the times when I spoke rudely to my Mom, when I didn't listen to her, when I didn't give her time. Every mom/dad would've told these lines at least once to her son/daughter - " you will understand when you become a dad/mom". My mom had also told me the same and now I UNDERSTAND. I understand that she was right in worrying about me on all those nights I was late, sitting at office/ outside with friends. She was right most of the times and I brushed it all aside like any other daughter of my age would've done. Now, I know that history will repeat itself and this time I will be at the receiving end. I will say all those things which my mom told me and my daughter will be telling me the same answers which I told my Mom. But for now, I am her world and she never gets tired of running behind me, chanting "Amma" all the time and crying when I leave her and step outside.
I felt guilty of all the times when I spoke rudely to my Mom, when I didn't listen to her, when I didn't give her time. Every mom/dad would've told these lines at least once to her son/daughter - " you will understand when you become a dad/mom". My mom had also told me the same and now I UNDERSTAND. I understand that she was right in worrying about me on all those nights I was late, sitting at office/ outside with friends. She was right most of the times and I brushed it all aside like any other daughter of my age would've done. Now, I know that history will repeat itself and this time I will be at the receiving end. I will say all those things which my mom told me and my daughter will be telling me the same answers which I told my Mom. But for now, I am her world and she never gets tired of running behind me, chanting "Amma" all the time and crying when I leave her and step outside.
I know it sounds crazy but I already miss her being so small, when I could hold her for as long as I wanted. She started exploring now and doesn't want to sit at one place for even a minute. She is growing up too fast and I am trying to savour each and every moment. I hope even with all the mistakes I am gonna make, I will still be as good as my mom.
Thanks Mom for everything you did/doing for me and thanks baby for making me realize that.
Happy mother's day to everyone ♥️
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